GRRRRR

So every day on Myspace I check my horoscope. Usually, it's just a general reading and could be applied to most any situation. Being in a bad mood today for various, I was hoping for a good one to make me say HMMMMM. Well, I checked it and was very surprised:

"You are quite familiar with having powerful emotional reactions

to a personal situation, but it might be quite a challenge today

to tell anyone what's on your mind. You are ready to break

the mold, but you don't want to disturb anything in the process

of breaking free. Take it slowly at first while continuing to plan big."

Ok, so this totally applies to me today. I don't have a car right now, and so have to rely on friends and family to tote me everywhere. I hate asking people for rides; it really sucks. Today, while my daughter was at church with my daughter, I was at the laundry mat washing clothes. Usually takes me right at 2 hrs to finish washing, drying, and folding; no problem. Well because church is over until 12 or 12:30, I had to wait for my mom to go pick my sibling up and then come get me and that was almost 1:30; 2 hrs after I was done with the laundry. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the help. I wasted 2 hrs that could've been used cleaning house, putting away the clean clothes, etc. I did just sit and relax for about 30 mins, but after that....well it put me in a bad mood.

Then a friend had a birthday party for her little girl who is also in my daughter's kindergarten class that was at a park out in the county. We wanted to go; but because had already been bitching that morning about the gas, I didn't ask her to take us. So needless to say, we didn't go and that just put me in a worse mood.

When I'm in a bad mood, I usually just eat whatever is in the cabinets. Well, I have found a substitute for eating whatever (had to change this to keep from gaining lost weight back). I sleep. So Taryn was sleepy and ready for a nap, so we both just slept for a few hours. Didn't get me a better mood, but oh well.

Well back to my horoscope. I am planning some big things; but that's just it - planning. I can't seem to get my footing in executing these plans. I don't know what it is, though, that's keeping me from doing what I need to do. I do the minimum. I go to work, make sure Taryn goes to school, keep a roof over our heads, food on our table and clothes on our backs - the minimum. I want to find a way to do more, but not sure where to go or how to get there. Wish insurance paid for life coaches; maybe I will have to check in to that.

"It's like a big chuck of dough!" LOL